Psych Diaries

 

My name is Hari. I’m a final year medical student. And I’m standing on the ledge of the tallest building in town. No, I’m not going to jump, even if you'd like me to. That would add spice to this story, wouldn’t it.? But I’m sorry, i wont jump. At least, not yet. And this isn't the story of what brought me here. It’s just where i stand when I’m narrating this story. I hope you don’t have a problem with that. Okay.. Here goes.. And, Oh.. Before i start, this isn’t some fiction. This is what really happened. All characters real, no names changed, and any resemblances if found, intentional. So have you ever wondered what will happen if you stare at a girl for a long time..? Yes, hats off to you, you are guessing it right. This is a love story.! And now you've already started predicting. But I’m sorry to disappoint you, thats not the reason i am on this ledge. And i repeat, i am not going to jump. Not yet. You always like to predict things, don’t you.? And y...

I must die… I should've died years ago. I don’t know why I didn’t do it earlier. Its neither due to lost love, nor that I've no means to live. Its just that I don’t want to live. Why should I survive today? So that I could have a happy tomorrow. What if I don’t need a tomorrow? I've had enough tomorrows already.  But how should I die? I would like my death to be remarkable. To be remembered. I could use an anesthetic drip and slip peacefully to death. But that wouldn’t be remarkable. I could have an adrenaline drip, adrenaline causing my vessels to burst, spraying the walls with my blood.. That would be remarkable, and it would be remembered, but I wouldn’t want those contemptible police officials in khakhees to puke on my body, Would I..? Being a doctor, if I hang myself to death by a stethoscope, it would be pretty graphic. But then, no steth is long enough to tie two knots. Everyone will die, one day or another. Why everyone rather tomorrow than today escapes my reas...

This is where i think aloud. This is where I talk to strangers who become strangers again. This is where i rant..! Well, you've been warned. If you still wish to take a stroll, You are Welcome. But do keep your footwears outside. Thank you.